Winter Solstice

冬至
Karen Mok
Lyricist: Lin Xi; Composer: Wu Bai



指尖以东在你夹克深处游动
能抱拥便抱拥下次用好友身份过冬
街灯以东白雪吻湿双眼瞳孔
能放松便放松泪比飞霜沉重

空港以西习惯生关死劫流逝
能放低便放低沉重感可叫机身跌毁
机舱以西直觉以光速去传递
坐快车乘早机自此疏於连系

我每次快分手总见雪花涌涌
预感的悲哀随雪花迎送
情人为什么给我吉卜赛的心
逛尽天地失去安稳
认错了方向颠倒快感
情人像游客给我吉卜赛的心
畅游之后总要伤感
陪水晶球热吻

北京以北热吻比风沙更绵密
能啜泣便啜泣下次怕他说今生永不
东京以东白雪比香薰甜蜜
愚蠢得愉快得迟早得到惩罚

Okay, it's a bit past already, but it doesn't matter, right?

I was going out this afternoon when my Hong Konger neighbour was burning kim zhua. Straight away I remembered although my family never celebrate this festival. Maybe it's because of this song, that made me remember. This is my favourite Canto song. I learnt how to sing it despite my dismal speech ability of Cantonese. This song is in the cult favourite album 《一朵金花》, cult favourite as in groupies of Wu Bai, because this whole album is produced by Wu Bai as an experimental album. Karen Mok on the other hand, erm, created a costume out of clingflim. And I think, this remains her only fully Canto album produced.

This MV is also one of my favourites. It's very stylistic, the use of shadows and the whole dance sequence is so artistic. Are they passionately in love, or are they struggling against each other? Sometimes, what separates love and hate is just one fine thin line. Oh, and Karen Mok is hawt~ Oh man, I'd die to have her body....

Feel like digging out my collections of Wu Bai's concert and MV DVDs to watch tomorrow... hahaha~ Also feel like going K Box to sing, but I lost my voice. Sucks... I was craving to go K Box for quite some time already, then that day dear Jinwei asked me out to go sing K, but I lost my voice then cannot go. He also asked Cindy, then she also sick. Jinwei must be thinking why those two zha bor kias all fall sick at the same time. lol~ suay la...

我的眼泪在颤抖

我的眼泪在颤抖
苏慧伦

曲: c.y kong
词:许常德

我的眼泪在颤抖
但我确定是爱你的
别管街上的人怎么说
当你停在马路中央吻着我
故事突然之间改变了
红灯没有阻止我闯祸
你和她最后究竟怎么了
总有人恋爱不看星座
危险我不想追究用爱解脱

也许当我拥抱这个快乐了
结果就注定会寂寞了
希望绝望的复杂的心情背后
有许多眼泪要说
当我决定让你吻我了
并不表示我是你的了
爱你只是一个实验
看你多会表演
反正我还陷在爱你里面

我的眼泪在颤抖
但我现在是爱你的
当你吻着我马路中
好多人面前不是谁都能做的
ha...la...

This is quite an old song, but for a couple of months this has been ringing in my head. Then last night, I had a dream. The dream played out a sequence of alternative scenario, leading me to remember about this song again. The busy streets from the dream, it takes a lot of guts, and a lot of love to be able to do it.

两个人的圣经

This song suddenly popped into my head. Think I've been dreaming too much about Wubai and China Blue since the video I watched yesterday. Featuring Dino with the opera vocal in this song, think this is the first and only time we hear from Dino, don't even hear from Dino in the Wubai songs, quite weird that he's only featured in another person's song. But well, this is Faye Wong, the Diva herself.

两个人的圣经
Faye Wong, featuring Dino of Wubai and China Blue

作曲:伍佰
作词:林夕

我们两个人一见如故
三言两语千变万化
七情六欲一生一世也十全十美

然后两个人一言为定
千辛万苦三更半夜
四海为家一无所有都爱一回

一间房一张床
两个人一直睡
一弹指一刹那
一辈子不翼而飞

海誓和山盟我答应视死如归
海誓对山盟我愿意望穿秋水
海誓爱山盟我拥护爱情万岁
海誓怕山盟我发誓永不后悔

最后两个人一厢情愿
一息尚存四大皆空
两人同心一样能做到
两全其美

I am very intrigued by Dino. I haven't heard him speak much, and mostly during concerts in Singapore he's greet the audience in English, even in the Da Xiao S Chi, he spoke in English and Big S replied in English. But he seems capable in speaking and comprehending quite a big of Chinese and Taiwanese. I wonder what is his preferred tongue. From is last name, I first thought perhaps he might be Iberian, but on second thoughts, I think he's more Latin American than Iberian even though Latin American would mean that his ancestors were from the Iberian peninsular. I wonder how he communicates with Wubai and the other members of China Blue.

It's so weird that I can't find much information about the personal lives of Wubai and the China Blue members. Oh well, they're selling music rather than themselves, I guess.

恶魔在身边

暧昧
杨丞琳

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
不能用恨你却不住结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

***

理想情人
杨丞琳

穿上洋装看着手表
时间快到心碰碰的跳
和你的第一次约会来临了

金色的阳光洒满人行道
换了新唇膏把头发弄好
要你看到我的好
喜欢看你走路充满自信
说话时候你的专注眼神
温柔的表情笑容里的天真
我相信找不到有比你更好的人
你心里理想情人是几分
是否也会有我的份
好想知道你的100分
会给怎样的人
亲爱的你不要再陌生
增加我戏份
我想问亲爱的你把感情升等
朋友变成情人
可不可以告诉我标准
不要让我一直等
听着那时间滴答的走
对街的你在点头
好像一个梦渐渐走到我前头
好想知道你的100分
会给怎样的人
亲爱的你不要再陌生
增加我戏份
我想问亲爱的你把感情升等
朋友变成情人
可不可以告诉我标准
不要让我一直等

More on the drama serial itself another time. 8 episodes down, 12 more to go. Yang Cheng Lin is so cute and He Jun Xiang is so shuai.

夜

夜
电影"夜奔"主题曲
作词:姚谦 作曲:姚谦 编曲:鲍比达
Elva Hsiao

OS: 那个大学的夜晚，当我一个背转身，我和林冲，既是生离也是死别了。
林冲...

只要给一苗火光
眼前就变成港湾
谁藏匿欲言又止的渴望
夜的手指轻轻一碰就渲染
我那沉默的心慌
曾有个人来解放
没料到爱过了一生不忘
后来感叹交会的夜太匆忙
你还欠我一个深深的拥抱
解释的眼光
所以我不停回头盼望
只是在每个思念的夜晚
哀伤编成网夜从此又黑又漫长

你还欠我一个深深的拥抱
解释的眼光
所以我不停回头盼望
当我一个人面对著夜晚
寂寞的哀伤
我该如何将它匿藏

OS: 始终是这么的雪夜上的道路无止尽的奔跑，握住他的手，对他说出我的爱。

优客李林's Concert

Saturday night saw me and Peiyi going for 优客李林's concert, yes, it's 优客李林, meaning there's 林志炫 and 李骥 they were back together for another concert. We didn't buy that good tickets, but the view was quite okay, we couldn't really see big faces, but there was the big screen, so it's okay, we could see the whole view of the stage though.

First things first, I must say this before I can continue saying anything else: 林志炫's voice is so so so beautiful! His singing is absolutely perfect, he can turn between the normal voice and the false voice so well, and it adds so much emotion to the songs he sang. Not just that, he can control his voice very well, and hit the high notes, and his breath is very long, he can pull the last notes so well, that I can just fall over and swoon all over him. And it's not just his singing, his voice when he talks is so swoon-worthy. It's like so gentle and cute. ahhh... I'm in love man~

Okay, enough of my bimbotic antics, 林志炫 and 李骥 are like so damn skinny. At first I just thought it was only 林志炫 who is skinny, but after 李骥 changed into this flimsy top, I can just see the skinny frame of his. I think they both look better wearing thick jackets and hiding their skinny frame. But 林志炫 is still damn shuai anyway. hehe...

Tobe very honest, I don't know many of their songs, only the famous ones, and some other 林志炫 sans 李骥 period of 林志炫's songs because I primarily am more familiar with 林志炫. So I was a bit apprehensive of sitting through a concert not knowing half the songs, but in the end it didn't matter, I love every song that came out of 林志炫's perfect crystal clear voice. And there were lyrics being screened at the big screen to help us sing along. I thought that was quite lame and distracting though, but it turned out to be very useful because 林志炫 and 李骥 made the audience sing along with them, but the songs which they asked the audience to sing along were also songs which I am familiar with, so it was quite okay.

Basically, they both managed to sing all the songs which I like, especially 林志炫 because I like him. hehe... The only gripe is the samba version of 蒙娜丽莎的眼泪, I prefer the original version one. But it's okay, since he sang my very very favourite song 散了吧. 林志炫 said that he usually sings this song as his last song, but he couldn't sing this as his last song that day because he still wants to continue singing more songs with 李骥. He's so cute.

散了吧
词:姚若龙曲:j.j.goldman

你试着将分手
尽量讲得婉转
我只好配合你
尽笑得自然
我就是不能看
心爱的人显得为难
你刚握过的手
留着一丝温暖
不知道够不够
撑过这个夜晚
我目送你远走
站的太久倦意淡淡
散了吧认了吧
算了吧放了吧
该原谅该潇洒
要原谅要潇洒
别回想别留下
可惜连我的心都不听话
可怜受伤的爱还想挣扎
痛不怕心不假
缘好短人好傻
我开车听音乐
漫无目的转
看街灯都亮了
一盏接着一盏
像为我计算内心
最深处隐藏的孤单
总习惯用沉默
处理我的伤感
也知道这世界
没有太多圆满
但爱到曲终人散
难免还遗憾
是不是有时候爱需要纠缠
会不会有时候爱就不该心软
要够坚持才代表爱得够勇敢
我如果能尽情将感觉呐喊
含泪问少了你今后我怎么办
那现在身边会不会还有你作伴

He was actually sniffling before he sang this song because the previous song he sang was too emotional. wow~ He can actually get touched by his own songs. I was actually apprehensive that he can't sing well because of his sniffling, but I thought that the resultant voice was only better because of all the emotions he had in him. Oh man, after listening to the song live, the CD version sounds so normal... I think this is what separates a good singer from a normal singer. A good singer sounds better live but a normal singer sounds better on the CD.

Another song I really like a lot.

不知所措
词曲:李骥

怎么会从你的双眸中
决定了我的难过
这次只有我们知道
在彼此之间交换的承诺
没有说出感受
只有不经意的沉默
却不能肯定你真的会懂
你身旁的他该是告诉我不能再说
在我再想从你的眼中找到悸动
也许我从门口离去不能代表些什么
我以为你会留住我
只有自己爱上你的夜里
我不知所措
让你轻易地把我的心带走

This song was the funny one. They were talking about them coming to Singapore as guest singers for another singer some long long time ago, and I was guessed this song correctly, but as they started singing it, my heart sank. 两个大男人唱什么出嫁嘛? It was just so weird... Really, even though this is one of my favourite songs, I cannot bear to hear two guys singing it, it was just so weird.

出嫁
作曲:詹兆源
作词:詹兆源
演唱:张清芳优客李林

红红的烛火在案头
我的心也照得发烫
红红的双喜映眼中
脸上却挂着泪两行
总会有这么一天
天真的一切都得走远
我不之所措
怎能不教我不心慌
昨天的潇洒少年郎
今天要变成大人样
掩不住嘴角的轻笑
全都是期待和幻想
他长得什么模样
她长得什么模样
有没有一卷长发
和一颗温暖
包容的心房
对或错有谁知道
能不能白头到老
有没有和我一样
我用一生一世的心
等待一生一世的情
也许是宿命
也许是注定
我真的希望
能多点好运
我用一生一世的心
换你一生一世的情
牵你的手
嗯…

And it was so funny because everytime 李骥 sang that 牵你的手 part, he'd stick out his hand to want to shake 林志炫's hands, but 林志炫 don't want. hahaha~ This was also the song they made all of us to sing along. Fun for a concert~ In a way, this was the first time I sat through the whole of this song without shuddering. Not say 张清芳 is bad, but her voice is just too high pitched for me to hear without shuddering out of natural reaction.

This was one of the last few songs they sang, and another song which I really like.

单身情歌
曲:陈耀川词:易家福
抓不住爱情的我
总是眼睁睁看它溜走
世界上幸福的人到处有
为何不能算我一个
为了爱孤军奋斗
早就吃够了爱情的苦
在爱中失落的人到处有
而我只是其中一个
爱要越错越勇
爱要肯定执着
每一个单身的人得看透
想爱就别怕伤痛
找一个最爱的深爱的想爱的亲爱的人
来告别单身
一个多情的痴情的绝情的无情的人
来给我伤痕
孤单的人那么多
快乐的没有几个
不要爱过了错过了留下了单身的我
独自唱情歌
在爱中失落的人到处有
而我不是最后一个
伤心的人那么多
我应该勇敢的过
这首真心的痴心的伤心的
单身情歌谁与我来合
the end

In all, the concert was well worthed the price. And godknows when else they can come together and sing again, so it's lagi worhwhile. And surprisingly, the concert was a sellout and there were like so many people there. I thought no one would go to such a concert, but surprisingly, I'm wrong. But ya, the age group of the concert-goers was a bit on the high side. And another surprising thing was the high proportion of male attendees, I thought only females would fall all over 优客李林, but apparently, they have many males fans too, or maybe those males were dragged to come along.

Die Schatten werden länger

I got it out from an email by Terrence.
It's from a musical called Elisabeth.


Die Schatten werden länger

TOD:
Zeit, daß wir uns endlich sprechen.
Zeit, das Schweigen zu durchbrechen.
Du kennst mich. Ja, du kennst mich.
Weißt du noch? Du warst ein Knabe,
als ich dir versprochen habe,
daß ich dir immer nah bleib.

RUDOLF:
O, ich hab dich nie vergessen.
Meinen Freund, nachdem ich rufe,
wenn mich meine Ängste fressen.

TOD:
Ich komm, weil du mich brauchst!

TOD & RUDOLF:
Die Schatten werden länger
und doch bleiben alle blind und stumm.
Zum Klang der Rattenfänger
tanzt man wild ums goldne Kalb herum.
Die Schatten werden länger...
Es ist fünf vor zwölf, die Zeit ist beinah um!

RUDOLF:
Zeit, den Riß der Welt zu sehen.
Könnt ich nur das Steuer drehen!
Doch ich muß daneben stehen.
Man bindet mir die Hände.

TOD:
Nichts ist schlimmer als zu wissen,
wie das Unheil sich entwickelt,
und in Ohnmacht zusehn müssen.

RUDOLF:
Es macht mich völlig krank!

TOD, RUDOLF & TOTE:
Die Schatten werden länger
und die Lieder werden kalt und schrill.
Der Teufelskreis wird enger,
doch man glaubt nur, was man glauben will.
Die Schatten werden länger...
Es ist fünf vor zwölf, warum hält jeder still?

TOD:
Was hält dich zurück? Dies ist der Augenblick!
Greif nach der Macht! Tu es aus Notwehr!

RUDOLF:
Notwehr?

TOD, RUDOLF & TOTE:
Die Schatten werden länger.
Was geschehn muß, das muß jetzt geschehn.
Der Teufelskreis wird enger
man muß dem Unheil widerstehn!
Die Schatten werden länger...
Kaiser Rudolf wird der Zeit entgegengehn!

This song is really very emotive, I couldn't help but feel almost tearing when I played it on youtube. Don't know if I can manage to ask someone to help me to get this musical on CD... wahaha~ All your fault la, Terrence, must intro the nice things to me. hehe~ But thanks anyway! Thanks, I really love this song~

For a background behind this musical, and behind this song, and the reason why it's so touching, please read the Wikipedia entry on Elisabeth the musical.

Enjoy~

The Past Came Back to Haunt

The title explains it clearly. I had a tough decision to make, to answer affirmatively, negatively, or to ignore. The wisest choice, of course, is to ignore, and hopefully everything will be all right again. But my fingers itchy, I replied, negatively, of course, but still, a reply is a reply.

So now, I'm like totally mindfucked and unsettled and in a mess.

一个人
杨乃文

雨下个不停
冷风儿吹
我心是雨水
慌乱没有起点
慌乱没有终点
飞舞在烟漠之间

溅湿了衣裳
迷惑了眼
到此为止吧
不想和你争辩
爱上你是从前
层层回忆将他洒在雨里面

驶向那白色地平线
浓雾漫在眼前
悲伤它总是一瞬间
浸湿了我
折磨着我
为何你始终不曾知道

只要你一个人了解我就够了
我已经付出全部爱和自由
只要你一个人了解我就够了
孤独它占据我心中已经太久
只要你一个人了解我就够了
泪已经流干
一切都太晚太晚

驶向那蓝色地平线
浓雾漫在眼前
悲伤它总是一瞬间
浸湿了我
折磨着我
为何你始终不曾知道

只要你一个人了解我就够了
我已经付出全部爱和自由
只要你一个人了解我就够了
孤独它占据我心中已经太久
只要你一个人了解我就够了
泪已经流干
一切都太晚太晚

一个人只要一个人

雨下个不停
冷风儿吹
我心是雨水
飞舞在烟漠之间
溅湿了衣裳
迷惑了眼
到此为止吧
不想和你争辩
爱上你是从前
层层回忆将它洒在雨里面

The other songs playing at the moment are Jolin Tsai's 《孤单的人总说无所谓》 and Emil Chau's 《寡妇村传奇》. I've put up these songs before so not putting them up again. I've changed my MSN quote to a verse from the latter song, but I altered a word and changed the entire meaning of the song. Don't know if anyone can spot it anot.

Anyway, speaking of that song, I realised that it wasn't Cindy nor Peiyi who recommended it to me, Cindy said that she never even heard of it before. She suggested it was someone else, but I thought it wasn't him because all along I thought it was a female who recommended it to me. In the end, I asked him and he replied affirmatively, so I guess it's more on that I subconsciously just didn't want it to be him.

Speaking of him, I was at AS1 walkway when a mutal friend who didn't know about our falling out, asked me something about something. She assumed that because of him, erm... She thought I'd be going because of his involvement, but I said I wasn't and she appeared to be rather shocked. I guess no one would have foresaw that our falling out would come so drastically. I guess that makes it two pasts coming back to haunt.

Then that day as I came home, the mp3 shuffled played all the sad songs. I think I need to load more happy songs into my mp3 player already.

心碎了无痕

《心碎了无痕》

闭上你的眼我的爱人
吻住你吻住疑问
你的心也变像落叶飞远
我宁愿瞎了眼看不见
求求你千千万万不走
空的心假的意
欺骗我都无妨
我会小小心心的等待
从施舍从怜悯变成真爱
相爱难恨亦难
我的心碎了无痕
吻著你心就不会疼
永不怨永不变
永不永远也不问
伤更深情更真

I always thought the title of this song was 《心碎了如痕》 because I thought that was sadder, but sometimes, things aren't so sad. Maybe I'm the one who wants myself to be sad, maybe things aren't that sad in life actually.

I've made a little decision, one decision that I made some time ago and I held out for about 6 months. This time I'll count how long I can hold out again. Life will be good. I'm too tired already. I'm contented like this. Maybe this is also what I want.

I took out an old journal and started writing stuff in it again. The last dated entry in my that journal was in March 2005. Two years have passed, two very long years. A lot have changed over this past two years, I won't say I'm glad all these have happened, but I'd say I've no regrets. I couldn't bear to read what I've wrote before, but I did take a short glance at it. Well, what should I say, the people I've wrote about then are no longer in my life. I wonder if the people I wrote about that day will still be in my life two years on.

Blast from the past.

疯狂的骑士

I don't know why but these two songs kept ringing in my head the whole of today. It's weird because I've never heard 《疯狂世界》 proper before, I only hear it when people sing it during KTV session. I never liked May Day even though I like rock bands. It's weird. It's even more weird since I do not like Jolin either, but 《骑士精神》 is one of her very few songs I don't mind. Must be the workings of the continued hautings of Rough Patch.

《疯狂世界》
如果说了后悔是不是一切就能倒退
回忆多么美活着多么狼狈
为什么这个世界总要叫人尝伤悲
我不能了解也不想了解
我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水
我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂的世界
如果是你发现了我
也别将我挽回
想了你一整夜再也想不起你的脸
你是一种感觉写在夏夜晚风里面
青春是挽不回的水转眼消失在指间
用力的浪费再用力的后悔
我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水
我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂的世界
如果是你发现了我
也别将我挽回

I don't know how long more I can stand without cracking, without bursting, without thinking about you. Sometimes I wish I can be totally free from your shackles, but it's so difficult. Friends who know about this problem advised me to leave, I know myself that I should be the one leaving, and not to look back again, but I can't do so despite knowing that that should be what I'm doing. 我好想好想飞 逃离这个疯狂世界 那么多苦那么多累 那么多莫名的泪水. Just this morning, taking the early bus to school, I had on my shades, it was there only because I was tearing under the shades. I'm really tired waiting for your message, waiting for your calls, waiting for nothing in the end.

《骑士精神》
当我看见左肩破损的战衣
盔甲后的你表情带著笑意
想要对我说
外来的袭击即将离公主远去
那些令人刺耳的声音我不听我不听
偏偏我又容易受影响容易伤心
没有用微笑的表面不停骗自己
他们的语气好笑的攻击自卑的心理
四年来带著各种面具想让你我孤立
莫名其妙那些话语
莫名其妙那些话语
如同沙子掉进眼里不用哭泣
莫名其妙那些话语
莫名其妙那些话语
不如下档电影值得注意
我不要王子苦苦守候的故事
梦幻不实我不希望你是王子
因为瑰影童话结局为战而死
故事开端结局会因你而真实
像骑士的忠贞
不畏惧邪恶的眼神
这过程一直放在我心底就像
挡在你胸前的盔甲
保护著我让我心疼
骑士们发挥出你们的精神
就这样强悍的骑士撑到最后
骄傲的公主的要回家整装再出发

I wonder if I can finally get out of this rump, look ahead of me, be happy without any shadows behind. I don't know if it's my problem or just that I'm unlucky. 我不要王子苦苦守候的故事 梦幻不实我不希望你是王子. I know there's no way I can trust you, but that doesn't matter, because you never wanted me to trust you. How sadder can I be?

Just borrowed a couple of books, bought more manga, collected a series of novels, and stalked out a couple of halfway decent drama series. Maybe I should immerse myself in some fiction and remove myself from reality. Maybe I can then forget thinking about you.

Of Widows and Extramarital Affairs

(re-edit: it's neither Peiyi nor Cindy. it's the other person whom i used to go ktv with frequently, ya, used to go. oh well...)
(edit: a factual error, I went with Cindy to the KTV and not Peiyi as I previously thought. Paiseh Cindy~)

I caught the title of this song on someone's blog and the image of the song stucked in my mind. I dug it up from my song collection and have been playing it on repeat mode ever since. I first heard the song sometime back during a KTV trip with Cindy. I first said that I never heard that song before, but she said that I definitely have heard that song before but just that I can't remember the title to the song. After she started singing, the song sounded vaguely familiar. Indeed I've heard that song before.

The song didn't strike me much other that I liked it. Then recently, I saw in a blog that that person listed this song as his favourite song. Digging out the song to hear it again, and reading the lyrics as I sang along, there was a different feel to the song. Maybe it is also that I've grown over the times and now that I've experienced some other different things, I feel more for the song.

寡妇村传奇 The Legend of the Village of Widows
周华健 Emil Chau

你说天黑以后要来
我等到月升东山
月眉弯弯
情泪两行也湾湾
我盼伊人
望眼欲穿

你说天黑以后要来
我等到日升窗台
晨雾淡淡
情影俩行也单单
我盼伊人
万般心酸

你说天黑以后要来
我等到两鬓霜白
发丝斑斑
情泪也斑斑
你说天黑以后要来
我等到两鬓霜白
发丝斑斑
情泪俩行也斑斑
我盼伊人
万般心酸

你说天黑以后要来
我等到两鬓霜白
发丝斑斑
情泪也斑斑
你说天黑以后要来
我等到两鬓霜白
发丝斑斑
情泪两行也斑斑
我唯一人
转眼半百

你说天黑以后要来
我等到月升东山
月眉弯弯
情泪两行也湾湾
我盼伊人
望眼欲穿

你说天黑以后要来
我等待等待
伊人何在
与你的情
你的小孩
我唯一人
转眼半百

There are that sometimes, I feel that I'm not much different from a widow, just that I've no kid in tow. hai... But listening to this song gave a an inspiration of an image which can be expanded into a short story or a full length novel. That is if I get to putting down my ideas and images on paper. But if I write it, I might want to try out writing in Chinese. It's been a very long time since I wrote a full length thingie in Chinese. I seem to be becoming more competent in English to the extent of neglecting my Chinese.

Then, there's this other song which stuck in my mind after I happened to hear it on Shuffle. The interesting thing about shuffle is that once in a while, I'd get to hear songs I've forgotten but nevertheless really like a lot. This is one of the occasions.

I wrote about this song before.
Rendezvous

The whole image that this song attempts to project is the scenes from In the Mood for Love. The whole idea of them being married but deeply drawn to each other and yet nothing can come out of this relationship. I thought the lyrics also brought in another aspect not part of the film, the obsession with the ring and the fourth finger, and the wanting to end that affair.

Felt a lot about the song, especially the lyrics, and the wanting to end it all by 13 February.

夜会 Rendezvous
王菲 Faye Wong

只为那陌生戒指
重新打量你修长的手指
你送我的指纹
我欠你的心事
恐怕要在今夜
还给天使
喜悦出于巧合
眼泪何必固执
走完同一条街
回到两个世界
原谅你和你的无名指
你让我相信
还真有感情这回事
啊怀念都太奢侈
只好羡慕谁年少无知
二月十三号到此为止
霓虹灯奄奄一息
十二点钟即将成为历史
往事若无其事
关系也没关系
我们再来不及
重新认识
两个人的巧合
总有个人坚持
回到原来的路
住同一个城市

I was listening to the first song yesterday afternoon, and I mentioned in passing to the mother about it. I said it was a very nice song. It's about the story of a widow. The mother gave an awkward look at me and asked, why I listen to such depressing songs, the more depressing songs I listen to the more depressed I'll become.

But really, mentally, I've grown to be a lot stronger than a year ago. There are less emo posts, less emo outbreaks, things have more or less stabilised, and I've slowly come to accept things as it is and not to think too much.

Some time ago, a friend of mine who had relationship problems finally made the decision of a clean break. He had a long discussion with me and said it was finally time to let go. The period after letting go wasn't a totally happy period and other complications arose. Now that things are fine, I'm also happy for him. Recently, another friend who had a similar problem too came to this similar decision for a clean break. Before this, there were a few attempted breaks, but all fell apart. This time he sounded determined, but only time can tell.

Wish them luck. But let's not forget the girl in a much worse position than the men.
She made her decision too, even though...

Five Hundred

In celebration of my 500th blog entry, this post shalled be dedicated to my most favourite singer/composer/lyricist/musician of all time. Welcoming Mr Wu Bai 伍佰 and his band China Blue and their latest album 纯真年代. It has taken me more than three years to reach this big five-oh-oh. I know, in terms of quantity, I'm still not up there along with those people who blog a few posts a day, but to me, I'm very satisfied with all the entries in this place I call the home of my heart. Sharing this wonderful occasion with such a wonderful person is such an wonderful feeling one can have, although the pun is a bit lame, but nevermind... hehehe~

To be honest, with Wubai's official website down after his release of the latest album, I wasn't kept up to date with his activities. In fact, I didn't even know about the release of this album until after a series of coincidental events. It just happened about a couple of days after the album was released, I was searching Baidu for Andy Lau's 《冰雨》. The search resulted in another song of the same title by Wubai. It listed the song as a song from the album 《纯真年代》. I can say that I'm very familiar with Wubai's discography and can list out all his album titles, especially those with all-original compositions, but I never heard of 《纯真年代》. At first I thought it might be a Hokkien album which I might have missed out in my memory because he just had a concert recently and there was no mention about a new album being slated and/or released.

A couple of days later, a friend casually asked me if I heard the latest Wubai song. With that about mentioned incident at the back of my head, I asked if the song was 《纯真年代》, affirmitive. Oh well... That answered that lingering question in the back of my head.

Naturally, after realising that my dear dear idol had released a new album, I just had to get my hands on it, don't I? I went down to Marine Parade after one of my exams. I thought perhaps Marine Parade with a couple of CD shops and its proximity to home, and also I needed to collect my contact lenses from my shuai shuai optician. But but but, the CD was all sold out. Schade. One of the shop assistants was like "the distributor didn't bring in many copies", "so all sold out already". Although I felt quite disappointed, I was also quite happy that all his albums were sold out, because it only meant that PEOPLE BOUGHT HIS ALBUM! HE HAS HIS STABLE OF FANS~

Anyway, I had to go down to bigger CD stores like HMV to get it, I decided. After another exam paper, I went down to Citylink Mall's HMV to get it. hehehe~ And I finally lay my hands on it.

Although I also finally did manage to get through his official website and saw his album, I didn't listen to the songs because I wanted to listen to it on my own player. Although I got a preview of his album cover from the world wide web, when I picked up his album with my bare hands, the first thing that struck me was that HE'S DAMN SHUAI. His latest haircut really suits him very well, I noticed this from his concert last September. And I think black really suits him very well~

The only thing that bogs me, how come the words for the title written for the album cover is in simplified Chinese. On the other hand, the words written in the background is in traditional Chinese. hmm... A bit weird, but I don't care, as long as Wubai is there and he's so shuai can already~

After buying the album, I sat at Mos Burger in Raffles CIty for a quick lunch while looking through the song booklet. Other than that he switched labels after the album 《泪桥》 and that his distributing team changed since then, his hasn't changed much of his other producing teams and/or marketing teams. His art direction was still done by Akibo Visual Studio, they never fail to amaze me with their album covers for Wubai, always make him look so shuai~

And as usual, every single song was produced by his Moonlight Music, and every song was written and composed by the man himself, and arranged and performed by him and his band. In fact, they were also featured in the song booklet too, and also in a couple of MTVs. I just went to sing KTV the other day and dedicated all the new Wubai songs to sing and also to watch the music video~ SHUAI!!!

For those who don't know, China Blue comprises bassist Hsiao Chu, or Ken and he's sometimes known as, keyboardist Da Mao, or Big Cat, and drums Dino Zavolta. Hsiao Chu is the one with long hair, often wears shades and a cap. Da Mao is the youngest, should be 33 this year. He's the smallest size and often sports shades, he's the only one I think I've never seen him without shades, only sometimes the shades are lighter though mostly darker shades. Dino is the biggest one, I think he's Latino though I never knew where he's from. It's amazing because when in concerts in Singapore, he always greets the audience in English. He also once sang back up vocals for Faye Wong, in her 《王菲》 album, the one with 《流年》 in it, Wubai and China Blue produced 《两个人的圣经》 which had this opera vocals in the background, Dino was the one who did it. I can't tell what language he sang but it sounded like a language from the Iberian peninsular.

Anyway, I personally feel that this album shows Wubai's growth in music making and music writing. Wubai has been into writing his own songs, composing his own music, having his band arrange the piece and them to perform it, and he produced the songs by himself. It's the kind of do-everything-himself kind of album. I have to give him credit for it, because he's the one who makes the final decisions and he can call his album his. Not everyone can do it. In fact, just check out those trash bubblegum pop singers and what they are selling, all marketed stuff. Even those so called music geniuses or 才子s, how many of them actually do their whole albums themselves? Not even Jay Chou lor.

The general direction of this album is one that mixes happy and sad together, there's a sort of progress in the songs, the first couple are all happy motivationals ones, while the later few are the more emotional songs. I don't know if the more emotional songs are what Wubai really likes because he has been quite disapproving of his more popular emotional songs, but well, I like them. His more happier songs are also not bad though, and he shows maturity in his lyrics, which is a really good thing. Music style is also quite varied, his last album was a bit too Techno-rock, noisy kind of stuff, the previous album was more transitional, and every song sounded like a title song. This album he brought back the simpler kind of music that is more heart tugging. A bit upset is that since 《流星》 in 《梦的河流》 he hasn't had any songs with voice overs. I liked those.

Now for the detailed introduction of the songs in this album...

Track 1
我只要…

你想开什么样的车子
你想住什么样的房子
你想穿什么样的衣服
你想要什么样的牌子
你想要用多久的坚持
换取心中理想的消逝
你想你是不是会觉悟
世界完全不照你意思
追寻着它若没有它就没意义
追寻着它若有了它也没意义
追寻的意义在于追寻那追寻
呼吸的快乐就是呼吸那呼吸
我只要和我相爱的人在一起
死心塌地
我知道我幻想的都不可以
没有关系
一生你吃多少条茄子
一次你要多大的面子
一辈子你想要有多少个孩子
一棵树要多少片叶子

This is a fast beat song with heavy drums and quite loud. Some parts of the lyrics might sound a bit 无厘头, but thinking about it closer, it feels like life is just like that. For an opening song, it brings up the energy level, but I don't know why, but I felt a tinge of disappointment. I think this can be classified as one of the new generation Wubai songs which I although don't find it bad, but I can't really appreciate it.

Track 2
纯真年代

现在你是不是一样感觉被伤害
所有的童话故事都已不再像昨天
关灯这样的日子依然没有改变
真心只有剩下一丁点
相信的意义正在那进出之间
心情的好坏变成来去无限
我也有想过是距离将它浓缩
时间变得紧迫
你觉得应不应该
抗拒莫以名状说不出来
隐藏在平静后面那份忍耐
我时常没有顾忌大声把它喊出来
这样又好像变成是谁的错
轻松我看着天空
明明就很沉重何去何从
能回头我早回头
我还在等待什么
我要我要我要跳进水里面
那里有个永恒青春的小孩
寻找遗失已久纯真的年代
有没有下雪我干嘛感动
未来朦胧眼耳朦胧
你想我要什么
躲在里面我要很久不出来
纯真年代
像个小孩
ha ha ha

This is a light hearted sounding song, but using it as his title song, I think there's some meaning that Wubai wants to convey. Like 《白鸽》 which he listed as one of his favourite songs, it's one which has a motivational meaning behind it, but this song is much more lighter than 《白鸽》 so I think it also means a different thing, like a change in musical direction or style. Or maybe it's just a gimmick to evoke nostalgia.

Maybe after writing hundreds of songs for oneself and other people, there is a need to breakthrough. In terms of music and style, I can say that 《纯真年代》 in terms of music and composition, is really one breakthrough piece for Wubai. And best of it, it's a well-liked one. My friend asked me for the song because she liked it. hehehe~

Track 3
两个寂寞

一样的想我
一样到以后
是我窥见你的心
我不能说
触动了自我
用一样的温柔
晴雨交替的日子里
想陪你走
不能停止从你世界的滑落
明明知道你我是两个寂寞
相爱不能聚首爱情又是什么
没有你的日子我不好过
清清楚楚在面前是两条路
看着你我愈走愈远愈模糊
我们伸出了手却碰不到你我
我开始怀疑我心破了洞
想你是这么做
我猜的透
只能想像彼此的拥有
两个人的寂寞都保留

This is one of the typically Wubai kind of song. After listening to the first two songs, I was a bit afraid that this album would deviate too far from the typical Wubai, but luckily, there was this song to remind me of my familiarity. I like this kind of songs, sad and emotive. And it showcases the strength of his band~

Track 4
cherry lover

我对你动了情移了心
不经意的话都说不停
彼此间的空气没有动静
我在等你给我答应
你圆润的嘴角好似在笑
叫我可以继续往前跑
可是你说不好他你没忘掉
我心酸酸地在哀号
you are my cherry
cherry lover you have a chrry heart
you are my cherry cherry lover
好不好把他忘掉吧
我想你的时候像小河流
心弯弯地泪都快要流
你想我的时候像暴风过
每一通电话都讲很久
想恨你的时候都不敢做
如果没你日子怎么过
你讨厌我的时候却一直念我
其实酸酸地在说爱我
这不是个相逢游戏
追赶跑跳可惜了美丽
还好我有超强的勇气
但是我早不属于我自己
cherry 好好爱我
cherry 相爱不容易
请你给我个回答
让我当你的唯一吧

This is also one of the lighter songs which has a catchy tune and it stucked in my head after a couple of times listening to it. When I first saw the song booklet I was a bit surprised, I think it's like the first time Wubai incorporated English into his lyrics, at least as far as my punitive memory serves me. I usually do not like songs which has English lines because usually the English there only for gimmick purposes and sometimes the English just sucks. Think that stupid May Day song 《恋爱ing》, it's just totally disgusting. But well, this one isn't that bad, I guess. At least there's not fundamental errors.

Track 5
海市蜃楼

墙上画雨点朵朵
风中沙卿卿我我
绿洲的树都烧了火
我的眼睛看不到我
救救我轻轻说
我不是在一个海市蜃楼
眼前的恐慌就是生活
没听错
用言语将我抹去
飘回我应有的大地
眼前的混乱就是生活
别胡说
飘回我应有大地
没听错别胡说
救救我救救我

This can be categorised as one of the same kind of songs like his 《海浪》 from the album 《泪桥》. I think it's sort of some kind of style which he stretches the notes of each word but the background music is very fast paced and noisy. I don't really like it although the chorus doesn't sound that bad, but I guess it's a kind of personal preference.

Track 6
冰雨

天空的雾气已开始在累积
心中的顾虑也慢慢消失去
我来的时候受过风的折磨
你说你要走你已经消瘦
相同结果相同理由
早就已经发生过
不同的我可以接受
注定面对生命安排
站在最远孤独的角落
这个时候开始下起冰冷冷的雨
落在身上却感不到一丝丝凉意
美丽的人儿呀我就要消失去
不要问我为何总有眼泪的痕迹

Another one of those typically Wubai songs, and I love it~ I don't know if it's the lyrics or the melody, or is it the combination of the lyrics and the melody. It's so sad and emotive that I can just feel for the song, the lyrics are also so well written that I can picture the scene out there. I sang that song in the KTV the other day, it's so nice to sing also~

My sister though was a bit skeptical. She didn't like Wubai refering people as 人儿, but I'm okay with it, it sounds okay mah~ hehehe... But I really like the part which says 这个时候开始下起冰冷冷的雨/落在身上却感不到一丝丝凉意, it's so sad... I don't know why but this songs reminds me a bit of 《泪桥》. Maybe it's the feeling, also a bit of the melody, but the music arrangement for 《泪桥》 has more keyboards in it.

Track 7
彩虹

慢慢掉下来
满天的棉絮飘在我俩中间
我看着你一闪闪的不见
是微风吹进我屏息的眼
慢慢走过来
移动的树都转到我的背面
将我遗忘那无声的夏天
要回忆起我必须再一遍
光线的尘埃
急促的舞动关于你的形容
若下起雨它变成了彩虹
若我哭泣它飞上了天空
有时候我会想起你
想起你我心颤抖不已
你现在好吗没有我好吗
还是你已经有了另一个家
有时候我想忘了你
那必须将我自己一起抽离
没有痕迹的脚步
我才会变孤独
将你挂起来
你是我心中的温柔的弧线
是阳光穿透水滴的美艳
我坚信不是偶然的相逢
七色彩虹

This song reminds me of 《夏夜晚风》, very simple in music, but yet very touching. In fact, this reminded me so much of 《夏夜晚风》 that I recommended it to a friend who likes 《夏夜晚风》 and she really did like this song too. It's just the keyboards and a bit of the guitar. I really like Da Mao's keyboards. Ever since 《泪桥》, I fell in love with Da Mao, and after seeing him perform 《夏夜晚风》 in the concert I further sustained my conviction.

But personally, I don't really like songs that are too slow, not say don't like, but I prefer other kinds of songs ba...

Track 8
不过是爱上你

难道爱就这么沉重
以为它像轻飘飘的解脱
旋转木马情节的小说
总在华丽的瞬间从头
难道情就是这么迷惑
以为它像你纤细的指头
划过了我屏息的眼眸
怎会变成我需要去挣脱
不过是爱上你
不过想在一起
在一起不分离
猛烈的冲撞就封住了心窝
本来我就是一个人来
也习惯一个人
又何苦你要给我那样的吻
或者我醒来也不该当真
你偷走我的灵魂
你不是纯粹那么隆重
是他安排的人
我现在一直对自己这样否认
绝对我不能当作没发生
是谁在暗地里说

I'd consider this as a typical Wubai song, but there's a little twist to the ever-familiar kind of melody. I love this song. This can be considered my most favourite song in the album, although I also love other songs too, but this lyrics also tugs my heart. One thing interesting, in the line 是他安排的人, the traditional Chinese words write the 他 as the God the 他, not this normal 他. Okay, maybe not God as God, but as some superior being, or some force of come kind.

This music video was also very nice. There's this girl fraternising with Wubai. I was so damn jealous lor... If only I can be that girl there fraternising with him, I'd give anything sia. I sang this song twice in the KTV the other day.

Track 9
一个梦

一种声音一首歌曲
一个日子一段回忆
一段恋情一段友谊
还有一个我一个你
慢慢陷入全都付出
就像跳入深深海底
真情的海今生的债
我在期待什么结局
云压下来雨泼过来
渴望躺在你的怀里
安慰我吧还来得及
为了一个梦我心底
就在我惊乱发狂胡言说话
是否你将那玫瑰
别在我俩的秘密
哦……
带着珍惜我要远离
到那天涯没有消息
再见过去如此而已
ba la……

This is the kind of motivational song, but I don't know why it doesn't really touch me much. Maybe because it reminds me of Emil Chau's 《朋友》, don't know why I thought of that, but there's this sense of nostalgia in the song that the singers wants to evoke but although I'm old, I'm still not old enough to appreciate nostalgia, I guess.

Track 10
秘恋

静静躲在什么的后面
讲着一些天国语言
明明就是一定有什么
发生你们两个之间
没发现我都看那边
装做都看不见
wu wu
就是会有奇怪的笑脸
收起在我转身以前
电话响起你就故意
一直跑到离我很远
根本都不想埋怨
喔~秘恋
就在我身边
贴着我的脸
是否只是你的对我考验
那只是耀眼
告诉我一点
我已准备好了面对面
你就是我生活的终点
我知道这样非常讨厌
所以我也不要很明显
让你知道我心被恋
慢慢的一整天
喔…我是真的爱着你
为你(为你)怎样都可以
告诉我(告诉我)是我想太多
你(你)还是要爱我

A bit light hearted, a bit 无厘头, but I don't really like this kind of love songs. It's not sad, not really that happy, doesn't really evoke much feelings from me. Maybe I'm the kind who prefer tragic or some more emotive kind of song. Or maybe I'm just jealous. lol~ When listening to this song, an image of his wife just popped up in my mind. ahh... Those wives, can't stand them, but well, have to accept them, but I can still be jealous what. Sometimes really can't stand myself for thinking like that, but what to do, can't think of anything else in a situation like this mah.

Track 11
你是我的花朵

留心脚步看得清楚
有很多可疑的因素
呼喊你让你糊涂
考验我爱的程度
高楼电梯霓虹深处
舞动在人群很拘束
拉着我不要飘走
我在你背后挡风
喔你是我的花朵
我要拥有你插在我心窝
我要保护你一路都畅通
就算你身边很多小石头
我要爱着你不眠也不休
不管你心充满多少困惑
我绝对不会对爱你放松
你是我所有快乐源头
我和你将会到达那开心乐园

When I first heard this I thought it reminded me of Cherry Lover, just that with a bit of Techno infused in it. Then I watched the music video. I changed my mind totally. This is not Techno, this is called Retro. lol~ Must go watch the music video, it's so retro that it's sort of cute. In the music video, Wubai and China Blue attempted to dance, imagine the kind of crappy agogo dance. hahaha~ The design of the title in the MTV was also the kind of Retro kind of font. Then there was the image of the flower, very Retro like. The use of colours too~ hahaha~

After watching the music video, my whole idea of the song changed a lot. I didn't really think much of it previously, but now hearing it, it's quite cute~ hehehe... A kind of whole new image change for Wubai for this song.

Track 12
一千万个理由

站在那风吹的角落
嘲笑风儿的浅薄
世界如此的辽阔
为何只对我诉说
又不是情话慢慢说
要是细语我会懂
过去我是答应过
难道我们要哀愁
静静的捂上我耳朵
不要徘徊我身后
我都已经在漂流
难道你没有出口
我有一千万个理由
证明爱你的是我
关于那天我的远走
有个拉长的漩涡
爱你爱你的是我
离开那爱你的漩涡
等待风儿的放手

The style of the music for this song is a bit like 《彩虹》, simple, with the guitar and the keyboards, but very much sadder. The drums and bass comes in later just as the song goes into the chorus, and it just sounds so sad, the whole combination and the slow pace of the melody. This is the kind of song which is so sad, that it can lower one's spirit as long as one thinks of the song. *sigh*

Track 13
翻白

想要问问你你心在哪里
是否被月亮吃掉了
银色的月光翻白了夜空
闪亮的河水晃晃动
白色的夜空听不到你那
甜温的声音难过了
喘息的律动浮沉的光波
拉出我爱你的初衷
呼吸停止的时刻
翻出感情的颜色
清澈的透明伸长了树影
我的渴望就像月光流

This is a nice parting song, and it continues with a bit of Retro feel to it. The lyrics reminds me of Faye Wong's 《无常》 because of the use of the scenery and also the mood of the person when describing the scenery. But the melody and the music for both songs are vastly different.

On the whole, this album doesn't disappoint. I know I can't ask for an album filled with all his emotive sad songs, because that's not him and I don't think I can tahan the emotional strain if I've like so many of those kind of songs in one album. Another thing I like is that there is so many songs in the album~ hehehe... Wubai's albums usually have more than 10 songs, usually about 12, maybe also due to him not producing an album that often compared to those young upstarts so having more songs is nice. And the most important good thing, unlike 《泪桥》, this is not a copy control CD, so I can rip it and upload it into my handphone in mp3 format~ yay~ It's so sad of 《泪桥》 that I don't have any mp3s of any song in that album, and I cannot listen to the song outside my house.

Please people, buy the album and support Wu Bai and China Blue okie~


That's Hsiao Chu, Dino, and Da Mao blurred in the background~

Raining

Inspired by the rain outside, I browsed through some of my songs and pulled out a couple of songs I really like that all of one thing in common. 雨. I don't know why but everytime it rains, my heart aches, sometimes my joints ache too, but that's because of rheumatism, which is another problem by itself. To me, rain is like heaven crying, the tears of heaven fall upon the vast earth. nice~

冰雨
刘德华

曲:潘协庆
词:刘德华,李密

我是在等待一个女孩
还是在等待沉沦苦海
一段情默默灌溉
没有人去管花谢花开
无法肯定的爱左右摇摆
只好把心酸往深心里塞

我是在等待你的回来(嗯)
难道只换回一句活该
一个人静静发呆
两个人却有不同无奈
好好的一份爱啊怎么会慢慢变坏

冷冷的冰雨在脸上胡乱的拍
暖暖的眼泪跟寒雨混成一块
眼前的色彩忽然被掩盖
你的影子无情在身边徘徊

你就像一个刽子手把我出卖
我的心彷佛被剌刀狠狠地宰
悬崖上的爱谁会愿意接受最痛的意外
悬崖上的爱谁会敢去采
还是愿意接受最痛的意外
最爱的女孩

This was once a very popular song, and one of y long time favourite Andy Lau song. I always try to sing it whenever I go KTV because it's so sad, yet it's fun to sing, as with all Andy Lau songs, nice to imitate, nice to sing.

雨衣
黄品源

词,曲:黄品源

细雨的夜里
想起曾一起躲雨
抱着你
世界最美丽
寄放在你心里的我的回忆
是否你也曾想起
若有绿
或许还会见到你
舍不得我们就这样分离
不得已的决定
怎么可能忘记你
雨衣里两颗心是否定了情
还是你不在意
我好抱你在怀里
说我早就爱上你
是否你也不能适应
现在的距离
孤单的望着雨
想着你还留着甜蜜
寄放在你心里的我的回忆
是否你也曾想起
若有缘
一定还会见到你
舍不得我们就这样分离
不得已的决定
怎么可能忘记你
雨衣里两颗心是否定了情
还是你不在意
我好抱你在怀里
说我早就爱上你
是否我们就这样分离
不得已的决定
后悔我没留住你
雨衣里两颗心是否定了情
还是你不在意
我好抱你在怀里
说我早就爱上你
是否你也想起那天的雨衣
藏着最深的情意
我爱你
好好保重自己

This song won a Golden Horse award for best theme song of a movie. It's not too often that Huang Pinyuan himself writes songs, either lyrics or composition, but when he does it, he does it well. One of the classics Huang Pinyuan love songs. My favourite song in that stupid Xiaowei album, sorry to say, Xiaowei not being his composition, and after it got overheated by the masses, I've started to hate it. Must watch the MTV for this song because it's mostly scenes from the movie, very sad, very nice.

rain
范晓萱

词:许常德
曲:郭子

我怀念有一年的夏天
一场大雨把你留在我身边
我看着你那被淋湿的脸
还有一片树叶贴在头发上面

那时我们被困在路边
世界不过是一个小小屋檐
你说如果雨一直下到明天
我们就厮守到永远

rain...
falling in my heart
你的声音仍然深印我心田
世界改变你也改变
我在海角天边

rain...
falling in my heart
你的诺言虽然没有实现
爱是雨点落在昨天
永不放晴的缠绵

我怀念有一年的夏天
一场大雨把你留在我身边
我看着你那被淋湿的脸
还有一片树叶贴在头发上面

那时我们被困在路边
世界不过是一个小小屋檐
你说如果雨一直下到明天
我们就厮守到永远

rain...
falling in my heart
你的声音仍然深印我心田
世界改变你也改变
我在海角天边

rain...
falling in my heart
你的诺言虽然没有实现
爱是雨点落在昨天
永不放晴的缠绵

rain...
falling in my heart
rain...
falling in my heart
rain...
falling in my heart
rain...
falling in my heart

rain...

People from my generation would have recognised that this was (not sure if it still it bust it was the very first) 音乐日记 opening song. A song made popular by Lin Lingzhi, too bad she's now left (or is it leaving) the station. A very sad song, because if you notice that line "你的诺言虽然没有实现" which effectively means that they weren't together forever. Oh well...

紫雨
齐秦

词,曲:董荣骏

无尽的天
带来一片不协调的感觉
多变的云
阻挡了一切黑暗
现实的脸
怎么多了一份无谓的空白
太多的规则
却让我无法释怀
曾经在多少的岁月
等待更多的伤害
回首只是看见
太多的未来
别让我沉醉梦幻 baby
pupple rain,please tell me why
无聊的色彩有谁能更改
pupple rain,please don't cry
乌云的背后仍旧是无奈
狂傲的风难道也算错
悲凄的雨也会有它的梦

This was a very very old SBC (Singapore Broadcasting Corporation, which became TCS which became Mediacorp) ending song. I can't remember what the show was about, only that I watched it, and when the show came on repeat, I'd switch on the TV at the end of the show just to hear the song even though I've now downloaded the mp3. It's a very sad song, but yet very nice to sing. I used to like Chyi Chin. That day I was talking to a friend who said that she like the name "Purple Rain", I brought up this song, drew a blank, I brought up an old Hong Kong blockbuster 紫雨风暴, and drew another blank. I think I'm with the wrong generation of friends.

暴雨
伍佰

词,曲:伍佰

到底你还要下多久
从昨天深夜下到午后
像是快溺毙的野兽
狂暴的撞击整个四周
满腔的怨恨一直狂流
倾泻在不见天日的大洞
你终究明明白白的显露出
隐藏在背后的那个恶魔
雨水它淹没所能看的一切
包括那心中坚强自我
大雨它冲走所有的美梦
想像的幸福全部被掏空
大雨它粉碎对你的感动
漫长的爱意是那么脆弱
我在这里无话可说
震耳欲聋的你的怒吼
熄灭蜡烛就像冷掉的心
是不是你就要我走
我想我会走
你要我走
我想我会走
大雨大雨大雨大雨一直下......

That song rang throughout my head when I was taking my A Levels, I don't know why. It wasn't really my favourite song when I first bought the album, but after it ringing throughout my head during my entire A Levels, I grew to fall in love with the song. Now whenever I hear this song, sing this song, or think of this song, I think about my A Levels, quite sad sia... lol~

大雨
娃娃

作词:陈建常
作曲:陈小霞

说真的我不是故意
看见你和她在街头伫立
我在犹豫该不该逃避
还是让你看见我在这里
天空间飘来的雨
滴滴洒落在我心里
我在怀疑该不该躲你
该不该躲这场雨
大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的没有主张
带我到没有爱情的地方哦
大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的失去方向
带我到没有爱情的地方

说真的我不是故意
看见你和她在街头伫立
我在犹豫该不该逃避
还是让你看见我在这里
天空间飘来的雨
滴滴洒落在我心里
我在怀疑该不该躲你
该不该躲这场雨
大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的没有主张
带我到没有爱情的地方哦
大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的失去方向
带我到没有爱情的地方

大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的没有主张
带我到没有爱情的地方哦
大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的失去方向
带我到没有爱情的地方
大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的没有主张
带我到没有爱情的地方哦
大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的失去方向
带我到没有爱情的地方

I don't own the mp3 of this song, but this is always the first song that rings in my head whenever it rains very heavily. Of course, the song I sing is a mangled version. I think I so like this song, or at least the reason why this song sticks to much in my head after so many years is because I really feel the way the lyrics are written.

Another song, I'd think of first whenever I see rain, okay not a song but a verse from a song, would be these lines:
雨下得闹烘烘
雪飘的兴冲冲
心不痛血不红
谁会懂一切不是梦
And the funny thing is that whenever I attempt to sing those lines, I'd do it in a mangled Cantonese accented Chinese. lol~ Yea... It's an Ekin Cheng song, maybe around the Noodle era, or maybe just slightly after. It's the theme song of the movie of the same name.

PS: All lyrics can be found from Baidu's mp3 pages, if you want you might be able to find downloads there too, but well, whatever you do, it's your business ah... Okay, I've added in some of the names of the lyricists and composers myself. I own the CDs of Huang Pinyuan, Chyi Chin and Wubai, so I can't be considered as a pirate, okie... wahaha~

If I Could...

抢回你的爱

A Jimmy Lin song originally written and sung by some Japanese group.
Melody by Yamashita Tashuro, Chinese lyrics by Wu Yukang

我站在巴士站看你们
看他在你无名指上亲吻
钻戒的shining约定的甜蜜
该给你祝福的吻

爱就像你裙上的玫瑰
今后只在别人身边翻飞
我只能回忆 却不能靠近
我是被谁放弃

爱一场倾盆大雨
找一颗落单湿透的心
那个人想大哭 想大喊
想向你大步奔去

If I could
抢回你的爱将遗憾一把推开
欠你的甜 欠你的泪
我用未来还
抢回你的爱我才能明明白白
就是苦 就是输
因为你 爱让我勇敢

抢回你的爱将过去都属回来
爱是自私 也是宽容
爱公平很难

I have the CD if anybody's interested.

There are a lot of things that I can do if I could, but in the end, it's just that I don't want to do it. If I could... I could do a lot of things... Really, but the whole point of saying if I could is only because I didn't, I don't want, I am unable to bring myself to do it. In the end, the vicious cycle continues.

Even though I'm here rambling on in the middle of the night hearing some 9 year old song and appearing to be so emotionally screwed, I have to admit that somewhere deep inside me, I'm quite contented. I'm happy, not the haha happy, but the contented kind of happy. I'm not one who is interested in all those pompous stuff, I'm just a simple girl, and it's very easy to make me feel contented, I guess all the right cards were being played for me to feel this way.

Like in the song, even though he can sing that he want to fight back the love, well, I'd infer that that's all in his imagination. yea... I can think aboout lots of stuff too. Of course, every night I'd wish that I can fight for my own happiness too, but after the explanations of the first two stanzas, well, the answer is very obvious. I know even if I fought for anything, I'd just get nothing, so instead of fighting and losing everything in the process, why don't I just stick to the status quo and be contented? yea... I'm so easily contented.

Feed me a plate of char kway teow and another plate of hokkien mee and I can eat out of your hand forever. So who else dares to say I'm one high-maintanence chick?

爱是自私 也是宽容 爱公平很难
Even though I might plot lots of so called coincidental meetings in my mind and sink down to my most vindictive vengeful mode, well, in the end, I won't do anything. Why? 爱, that simple. It's not fair for me, it's not fair for anyone else.

Those Were The Days

I'll be taking another short break from blogging because I've an assignment due on Wednesday and a major test on Friday. In between I've to celebrate my sister's birthday, watch Death Note the movie, and then watch the three episodes of anime I've downloaded and the read manga. Which also means that I'll be very busy in the upcoming week. I've also to settle some SEP stuff which I'll blog later because it's causing me a big big headache. And I've a ton of projects to do too.

So, on with it. The song of the week~
Those Were The Days
by Mary Hopkin


Those Were The Days on Youtube

Once upon a time there was a tavern
Where we used to raise a glass or two
Remember how we laughed away the hours
And dreamed of all the great things we would do

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Then the busy years went rushing by us
We lost our starry notions on the way
If by chance I'd see you in the tavern
We'd smile at one another and we'd say

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Just tonight I stood before the tavern
Nothing seemed the way it used to be
In the glass I saw a strange reflection
Was that lonely woman really me

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Through the door there came familiar laughter
I saw your face and heard you call my name
Oh my friend we're older but no wiser
For in our hearts the dreams are still the same

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes, those were the days

From what I've read on the net, this song was originally some Russian folk song, but some also say that it was an unnamed song in Brazil for the longest time ever. I kind of like the Russian lyrics too.

DOROGOJ DLINNOYU
Ehali na trojke s bubencami,
A vdali mel'kali ogon'ki. Mne b sejchas, sokoliki, za Vami,
Dushu by razveyat' ot toski.
Dorogoj dlinnoyu, da noch'yu lunnoyu,
Da s pesnej toj, chto vdal' letit zvenya,
Is toj starinnoyu s toj semistrunnoyu,
Chto po nocham tak muchala menya...
Tak zhivya bez radosti, bez muki,
Pomnyu ya ushedshie goda, I tvoi serebryanye ruki V trojke,
uletevshej navsegda... Dorogoj dlinnoyu...
Dni begut, pechali umnozhaya, Mne tak trudno proshloe zabyt'.
Kak-nibud' odnazhdy, dorogaya,
Vy menya svezete horonit'.
Dorogoj dlinnoyu...

Translated, that would be
As sung by A.Vertinskiy:

(We) Used to ride in a three-horse carriage with bells (tinkling)
And lights were blinking in the distance
I wish I could go with you (again), falcons
To clear my soul off all my grief

Refrain:
(Going down) that long road on a moonlight night with that
song that is flying away, ringing
And with that old seven-string one (guitar)
That troubled me so much at nights

Living such life without joy and torture,
I recollect the years that passed by
And your silver hands
in that three-horse carriage which went away for good...
Refrain: (same as above)
Days are passing by, multiplying my sorrows,
It's so hard for me to forget the past
And one day the day will come, my dear,
When you are going to bury me...
Refrain: (as above)

I think I'm starting to fall in love with these sort of old school songs, perhaps it's because I'm growing old, and with everyone who ages, nostalgia will follow... ah well...

Should I Stay

Someone sent me this song some time ago, when I just returned from Germany and was experiencing rough patch 2.0. Should I Stay by Dreamz FM.

I did play the song on repeat mode a couple of times then, but never took much notice of the song even though my friend included the lyrics in the email for me. To me then, the song was just another song which lyrics didn't make an impact on me.

Then as I took the bus home today, I saw the repeat telecast of Singapore Idol on TV Mobile. After that I came home and played the song over again. Curious, I went to look up my old emails and dug out the lyrics of this song. It was then that I realised why my friend sent me this song. To that dear friend, please accept my belated gratitude. I know you are facing a problem too, let just cross our fingers, grit our teeth and hope that something will come out of something.

Date: Sun, 13 Aug 2006 17:46:40 +0800
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To: "Joan Ang"
Subject: Should I Stay

had a drive driven by your love
but when you messed around i lost the drive i found

thought you needed, needed someone true
but you changed your mind or had i failed you?

wish you'd been careful with my heart
but you tore it apart and broke an angel's heart

the kiss was true, has to end somehow
but i am livin' proof of what love is about

it's hard holding you, loving you, losing you
it's sad to be true and be fooled by you
i don't know, i gotta know
should i stay or should i go?

you played me on, played me like a clown
but i feel for you, even though i'm down

my heart is heavy, heavy like a rock
but i am so amused, you're still in my thoughts

it's hard holding you, loving you, losing you
it's sad to be true and be fooled by you
i don't know, i gotta know
should i stay or should i go?

should i stay?
should i go?

it's hard holding you, loving you, losing you
it's sad to be true and be fooled by you
i don't know, i gotta know
should i stay or should i go?

this time its done, it'll never feel the same
but we had some good times, guess it's sad just the same

i guess the truth, doesn't matter somehow
but you were livin' proof of what love is about

--

I battled this question for half a year, or more than that. I thought I was supposed to go, but the last date changed it all, in the end I stayed. Actually the last date did had some problems, a day before it we met again, then on the last date I was put aeroplane, so technically I can't really call it a last date since I've now decided to stay.

The big question is should I meet him before Italy for one last time, or let Italy do us part and we'll see how things go from after that. I am prepared for all the consequences should I stay, that I'm very resolute. If time has come for it, I'll do whatever I should do and accept whatever blame.

No regrets.

Wubai's Concert

It's quite misleading to title this as Wubai's concert since there were extras like Zhang Zhenyue and MC Hotdog, but anyway, I was there for one sole purpose, WUBAI.

I went with Peiyi. We met at Parkway for lunch instead of eating at Expo, and it turned out to be a very good decision because Expo was packed filled with lots and lots of people. There was the Comex thingie, some stupid computer fair and of course that stupid church holding its services there. I really don't understand why after so many computer fairs, people are still flocking to more computer fairs. And I don't understand the mentality of devout Christians too. All of those people just filled up the whole place making us concert goers having to squeeze with them. Kanasai...

We had many options to get to Expo from parkway, but we finally decided that the easiest way to get in is to take MRT, hence we took 31 to Tanah Merah MRT station. Taking a bus to Bedok would only increase our MRT fare and because we're on bus pass so we need to take less MRT as possible.

The concert hall itself was not very big, but still, from a distance you can't really see the face of the singer, unless you look att he big screens. I was sitting at the very front 4th row, so I manged to see close up, big big, my idol's face. I was so close to him that I could feel him looking so shuai just like that. Oh my God... I'm so in bliss. I'll rant on later, I'll start with the beginning of the concert.

Like all other concerts, it started late. I also have yet mentioned, this was supposed to be a joint concert, joint with Zhang Zhenyue. Zhange Zhenyue came out quite suddenly and took the stage. He didn't talk much, he jusr sang, sang his godknowswhat songs. And I was bored. To me, Zhang Zhenyue was only a stage warmer. bah~ There was this group of fans who stood up the entire period Zhang Zhenyue sang, but they were the only ones who stood.

When MC Hotdog took the stage, more people stood up. Later when Wubai came on, about 70% of the audience were standing up. I guess we know who the bulk og the concert-goers were there for. hohohohohoho~

Anyway, I was bored.

The thing I didn't really understand about Zhang Zhenyue was that he never introduced his band to the audience. Maybe I'm used to Wubai's style, he always introduces his band members individually. Zhang Zhenyue didn't even introduce his band as a whole. At the end of the concert, the encore, when everyone took the stage and sang a group song, Wubai was the one who credited Free 9. Well, I think the band plays a very important part, crediting them is natural, so I don't really understand why Zhang Zhenyue did not take the time to introduce his band members.

The whole MC Hotdog thingie was also quite incomprehensible. First, I don't even know who he is. Second he claimed that some song everyone should know how to sing and sing it together when I never even heard of the song before. I think I have a very big and serious generation gap from the youngsters nowadays. wahaha~

The main highlight, the only highlight, the whole idea of the concert, the whole point of me getting the 4th row seats in the middle bloc, is W U B A I. period.

After Zhang Zhenyue left the stage, the chants for Wubai started. wahahaha~ Then Damao (Big Cat) came out. He was dressed in an all black ensemble, and with his trademark sunglasses. I don't think I ever remember seeing Damao's eyes before. hehehe~ Damao came out with a laptop, a bit weird. Then he started playing the keyboards. AND THEN AND THEN WUBAI HIMSELF APPEARED!!! He was wearing all black too~ But with some silver crystals decorated. His hair looked no nicely blown. It's a bit longer than the last time I got to see him, maybe it's the fringe that was longer, but anyway, he's so damn shuai.

After the first song, the rest of the band came out, they were all in black, Hsiaochu (Ken), the bassist, had sunglasses too~ I wonder if they can actually see anything in those sunglasses, but I think the stage lighting is strong enough. hehehe~ Dino, the drummer, was right at the back and the cymbals blocked his face from my view, quite a pity.

I stood throughout the entire time Wubai sang. And sang along to almost every song. The only songs which I could sing were 《背叛》, the only Chinese song, and a smattering other Hokkien songs. The only Hokkien song I could sing along was 《世界第一等》. The repitore was quite standard, the usual songs that you expect to hear from him you've heard it, so I was quite satisfied. Still, it would be loads better if it was a solo concert and with those irritants that warmed the stage.

During the concert, Wubai said that the songs he didn't expect people to like became classics, the songs that he wanted to become classics, were forgotten by people. He pointed out 《浪人情歌》 and 《白鸽》. Personally, I think it's because people prefer to remember sad songs to encouraging ones. But 《白鸽》is a personal favourite of mine. It's because of it that made me fall in love with Wubai. I like Wubai since all his sad songs like 《浪人情歌》, but I wasn't in love with him. I wasn't a rabid fangirl, groupie of his. But after 《白鸽》, I was evangelised. I first saw the MTV, and I was drawn to the tune of it, also the lyrics was very well written, very encouraging, very nice picture of the future painted, but sung in a very weathered tone.

Remember this picture?


I used it when I wrote this entry, and I often use it as my MSN picture. It's the promotional picture for 《白鸽》, that thing in his hands if you can see clearly, is a white dove. hehehe~

《白鸽》
曲:伍佰
词:伍佰

前方啊没有方向
身上啊没有了衣裳
鲜血啊渗出了翅膀
我的眼泪湿透了胸膛

飞翔着强忍着伤
逃离了猎人的枪
我的双脚没有了知觉
我的心情下冰冷的雪

亲爱的母亲挚爱的朋友
我会坚定好好的活
沉默的大地沉默的天空
红色的血继续的流

纵然带着永远的伤口
至少我还拥有自由

飞翔吧飞在天空
用力吹吧无情的风
我不会害怕也无须懦弱
流浪的路我自己走

那是种骄傲阳光的洒脱
白云从我脚下掠过
干枯的身影憔悴的面容
挥着翅膀不再回头

纵然带着永远的伤口
至少我还拥有自由

呜...

In all, it was really a very satisfying night even though I stood throughout and held my placard throughout. I think I was the only one who brought a placard~ While making the placard, I realised that my art is terrible. Terrible, like in REALLY VERY BAD. In the end, Peiyi drew out the letterings for me. I cut out the pieces, but Peiyi was disdainful of my cuttings. I hope Wubai saw my placard, and I hope he appreciated it~

*sigh* I so want to marry him~

2006 伍佰 & 張震嶽 搖滾新加坡演唱會

最新消息『2006 伍佰 & 張震嶽 搖滾新加坡演唱會』
演出者:伍佰 & China Blue + 張震嶽 & Free 9
日期: 2006/9/2 星期六
時間: 8 PM
地點: The Max Pavilion @ Singapore Expo
票價: $58, $78, $98, $128 , $148
Ticket prices exclude SISTIC charge
搶票熱線:+65- 6348 5555
搶票網址:www.sistic.com.sg
*門票已在各SISTIC售票處公開發售!

This is yet another post dated entry. I'll edit the date again once I've bought the tickets. Anybody interested can contact me.

Updated:
FUCK~~~ Tickets not out for sale yet! DAMNIT DAMNIT, bluff me...

Updated again!!!
I bought the tickets liao~~~ wahahaha~ row 3 or 4 somemore, sear 13 and 14. Now I need someone to go with me, price negotiable. I'm now so happy despite serious lack of sleep and throbbing headache.



I think I should start designing my placard already~ heeheehee~ I sound like a groupie all over again. But then, he's Wubai! I so want to be his groupie~ bah~

Goodbye My Lover

Goodbye My Lover

***

Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt


Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

***

再见我的爱人 (Goodbye My Lover) by 苏慧伦 (Tarcy Su)


不要想太多 已经太多不知所措
爱你一个人 也看着你爱着别人
雨 不停的下 在我的心中 早已经淹没
我想离开你 我要离开你 再见我的爱人

原谅你 原谅到什么时候
我没有保留眼泪 一直让它流下来
难道说 你千万次的理由
还能让我 找到借口

不要想太多 应该习惯拥抱寂寞
最美的承诺 到明天却都是伤痛
你 你的天空 有一个缺口 我无法承受
是否还能相信 我们彼此的梦 请你放开双手

原谅你 原谅到什么时候
我没有保留眼泪 一直让它流下来
难道说 你千万次的理由
还能让我 找到借口

原谅你 原谅到什么时候
我没有保留眼泪 一直让它流下来
不想听 你千万次的理由
不想走回 爱你的路

原谅你 原谅到什么时候
我没有保留眼泪 一直让它流下来
难道说 你千万次的理由
还能让我 找到借口

原谅你 原谅到什么时候
我没有保留眼泪 一直让它流下来
不想听 你千万次的理由
不想走回 爱你的路

***

再见，我的爱人 (Goodbye, My Love) by 邓丽君 (Teresa Teng)
no video, just click on the mp3 link there.

good-bye my love
我的爱人再见
good-bye my love
相见不知哪一天
我把一切给了你
希望你要珍惜
不要辜负我的真情意
good-bye my love
我的爱人再见
good-bye my love
相见不知哪一天
我会永远永远爱你在心里
希望你不要把我忘记

我永远怀念你温柔的情
怀念你热红的心
怀念你甜蜜的吻
怀念你那醉人的歌声
怎能忘记这段情
我的爱再见
不知哪日再相见

〖白〗
再见了我的爱人
我将永远不会忘记你
也希望你不要把我忘记
也许我们还会有见面的一天不是吗?

good-bye my love
我的爱人再见
good-bye my love
相见不知哪一天
我会永远永远爱你在心里
希望你不要把我忘记

我永远怀念你温柔的情
怀念你热红的心
怀念你甜蜜的吻
怀念你那醉人的歌声
怎能忘记这段情
我的爱再见
不知哪日再相见
我的爱我相信
总有一天能再见

***

再见我的爱人 (Goodbye My Lover) by 动力火车 (Power Station)
no video, just click on the mp3 link there.

不过就这么两只脚
远的近的所有的船你踏的牢
不过就这么两三秒
忽然我的心开了窍你我不要
爱的昏天暗地
那些痴言梦语盖住快乐的路标
放弃一座城市
眼前忽然出现一条一条光明大道
再见我梦中的明天
再见不确定的昨天我全部收回
再见离开我的视线
再见关掉这场梦餍再见等于不见
再见你给我的相片
再见你勾人的双眼随便你给谁
在爱的一对一的势力范围没有妥协

***

It started with Say Goodbye, Goodbye..., Jinwei introduced me the James Blunt song. On hearing the title, I first thought of the Tarcy Su song because I own that karaoke VCD and often sing it at home, and it's written by Zhang Zhengyue, so it's nice. I managed to find it on youtube to my big surprise. But also surprising, baidu doesn't have it. Then I thought of the more classic Teresa Teng one. My parents do play it in the car sometimes. Youtube doesn't have that by Teresa Teng, it has a cover version by someone else though. Then I remembered another song of the same title, the Power Station one. I think I have the burned CD of that album of the same title at home, not so sure. But because the hit song of that album was some other song, so I don't think many people would have heard of this before.

Maybe it's time to say goodbye, and seek a closure. And find a new horizon. But if I do, will I be accepted?

Say Goodbye, Goodbye...

I wanted to post this yesterday night but I couldn't find the lyrics to the song I wanted to post, so I postponed it.

Yesterday morning, I woke up woth a song stuck on my head, I kept singing the above two lines, "say goodbye... 现在就离开 放下我的不忍你的爱 goodbye...", so the whole day, I set my music player in my N70 to this song one repeat mode. Perhaps because the night before I went to sleep in tears, I don't know why, but I was in tears. Some nights I just can't fall asleep before I have a good cry, maybe not a big cry, but just let all the tears and frustrations out. It's very difficult to say goodbye. I've been trying. Coming all the way to Germany and forcing myself to say goodbye is one method, but now that the end of my almost like a dream trip, I fear that when I go back to Singapore, I'd say hello again. And the cycle of hurt and pain will continue again.

Maybe sort of like a sense of deja vu, or that there's a bond between me and my friends, I came home yesterday to read this in a friend's blog.

我的美满爱情
最近从姐姐那里得知她的一个朋友因为身旁的压力，而拼命找女友。他今年26岁，从未交过女友，看见自己的好友不是已经有对象，就是正在筹备婚礼（包括我姐姐），还是孤苦伶仃的他便担心起来。

他把找女友当成一项任务，到SDU网页上筛选心仪的对象，从中慢慢淘汰，在精挑细选之下终于成功完成了心愿，结交了一名与他同龄的老师。

这个过程似乎一点也不浪漫。。。爱情为何会是种压力？难道就不能够洒脱地决定自己所要的生活吗？

我会不会到了26岁时，也和他陷入同样的“状态”呢？妈妈曾说：“找不到不要紧，最怕是选错郎，毁了自己的一生。”

好浅白易懂的一句话，但到底会有多少人真正理解它的意思？人都是追求爱情的动物，愿意一头栽进去，沉浸在甜蜜的爱情里，但最后受伤的还是自己。就这样，很多人的生活就此被解不断的爱情赳缠，搞乱自己原本应该是平静的生活。

身边的例子不说。每回阅读报纸，翻开娱乐版时，总会不由自主地开始叹气。婚外情、一脚踏两（三、四。。）船、性格不和、移情别恋、再婚。。。多得数不清。

最令我看不爽的，就是那些找一大堆分手的理由，接着又快速地另结新欢，然后大肆渲染这个“好消息”，仿佛想证实自己多么有魅力。

前几天，我看到一本美国杂志的封面，上面写着AJ要求JA 不要再赳缠Brad。据知，JA一直打电话找前夫，让AJ很不满。我不知为何，看到她如此的“恐吓”，非常气愤。虽然这对人们以前公认的“金童玉女”已经分开了，但JA至少还有联络自己的前夫的权利吧，几时轮到AJ喧宾夺主？

最近又发生许美静怀疑因为感情问题而“发疯”，让我觉得爱情这个东西确实不好惹。正如妈妈所说的“找错郎”就是这个意思吧。妈妈说如果知道对方不是合适的对象，就应该早点松手，不该继续执著，什么“愿意没有名分”根本就是不该有的想法。这个道理我也同意，但女生总是会比较感性，只要能和喜欢的人在一起，似乎就足够了。*Alamak..Please lor，你还以为自己活在童话故事里啊？醒醒吧!*

爱情就是那么脆弱，前一分钟可以甜甜蜜蜜，谈着未来的打算，下一分钟会发生什么事，就难以预料了。可能你们会因为晚餐吃什么争吵，为去哪里而争吵，为钱争吵，为没时间见面争吵，为见面争吵，为不见面争吵。。。总而言之，什么能吵的，都应该吵完了吧。到忍无可忍时，就以性格不和了解整段恋情。。无论它是一个月，一年，五年，十年还是二时年。不和还是分吧，好过彼此痛苦。

这就是人类所期盼的，不断追寻的“美满”爱情吗？

Link here.

Just as her other Chinese blog post moved me to tears, this did not disappoint either. Maybe because I see myself in such a position too. I've been trying to tell myself I'm stupid, I've been letting people tell me I'm stupid, but in the end, I'm not really stupid, I'm just consoling myself by deeming myself as stupid.

hai...

I shall not sink into depressed mode today, so I shall continue with my narrations rather than rants. So, that night I badly wanted the lyrics to the song that kept playing in my head. I headed first to BaiDu. I mean, those Chinese really have piracy brought up to this level, where else can I go? But to my surprise, Baidu didn't have the lyrics. I tried google and yahoo seaches, neither yielded results. I ended up in some places which touted to provide that lyrics, but they turned out to be farce links.

I turned to my resident provider, and he too did nothing to help.

Then I proposed the last resort measure. Which isn't really that desperate a measure if I were at home back in Singapore where everything is within my reach. You see, that song is not a very popular song. Unless you are a fan, you'd probably never heard of it. But I have the song. Because I bought the CD. I think this might be incomprehensible to some people, but I do own that CD, so I have the lyrics book, but back at home.

I'm a nice person, and it was late at night in Singapore, so I didn't want to bother my provider and force him to be my errand boy and do paiseh stuff.

But just as I was thinking of when I can email or SMS my sister to get her online to do me the favour and copy the lyrics from the booklet for me, she turned up online tonight. It might not be unusual to those people who are online 24/7 but my sister is under the control of the emperor and dowager at home, and internet access is limited to their permission, and she hasn't been online for more than a week already. But I was pleasantly surprised to see her online tonight. It seems like more than a coincidence.

The lazy sister scaned the lyrics booklet for me and sent it to me. I typed it out.

Techno Love
李雨寰

我早已没有心跳
爱情变得不美好
沉默的对白之中
我好想死掉

听不见你的心跳
看不见你的美好
在我们碰触之间
一切变得无聊

会不会你也感觉到
会不会你也想要逃
我们的泪光中有多少谎言
已不再重要

Say goodbye
现在就离开
放下我的不忍
你的爱

Goodbye
别了我的爱
只是不再隐瞒
我们早已没了的爱

停止所有期待
让我独自背负对你的伤害
让我离开
潇洒痛快地离开

The title is damn cheesy. There's nothing techno about the love song if you read the lyrics, but just because that song's genre is techno gives it the title Techno.Love, yes, with that period in there. It's so turn of the century. Granted I like the lyrics. Li Yuhuan wrote the song himself, the lyrics and the composition and he probably arranged it himself. He's by profession a music arranger and producer having done songs for like Faith Yang, Mavis Fan and other Taiwanese experimental singers.

Feel like making a music video out of this song.

I don't know if this will end up as yet another of Joan's impulse decisions anot, but I really am interested in making music videos after a couple of attempts at AMV making. I like video editing, it's fun. But the thing about anime is that I don't have many clips to begin with, so often the result isn't as I'd like it to be. And the answer to this problem is for me to film these clips myself. But I can't do everything alone. I right now have already myself, one actress and one handyman. I need an actor before I can make plans. Hopefully I can find one, and hopefully this is not just one of my another rash impulsive cravings.

Anyway, this is the most recent AMV I've uploaded on Youtube. I've uploaded it sometime ago, but never found the correct time to put it up here, but thought that that video has something to do with my topic today.

The Other Guy


"a detective conan amv, but more like a fanfic though. an amv with 1920s shanghainese movie styled captions to complete the content of the amv to make it seem more like a piece of fanfic, with moving images.

involved characters include hattori heiji, kudo shinichi and toyama kazuha.

song used is unfaithful by rihanna.

it's still dedicated to jinwei."
- from my video description in youtube

I'm now making another AMV also for Detective Conan, but have been procrastinating due to my deadlines. After that I want to really use film and video a music video. I've a couple of songs that sound suitable to use, but well, I need the actors, and also need to make sure that I don't lose steam before I can complete it. bah~

It'd be nice if one day I can too put my stories into film. But we'll see...