I don't know why but these two songs kept ringing in my head the whole of today. It's weird because I've never heard 《疯狂世界》 proper before, I only hear it when people sing it during KTV session. I never liked May Day even though I like rock bands. It's weird. It's even more weird since I do not like Jolin either, but 《骑士精神》 is one of her very few songs I don't mind. Must be the workings of the continued hautings of Rough Patch.
I don't know how long more I can stand without cracking, without bursting, without thinking about you. Sometimes I wish I can be totally free from your shackles, but it's so difficult. Friends who know about this problem advised me to leave, I know myself that I should be the one leaving, and not to look back again, but I can't do so despite knowing that that should be what I'm doing. 我好想好想飞 逃离这个疯狂世界 那么多苦那么多累 那么多莫名的泪水. Just this morning, taking the early bus to school, I had on my shades, it was there only because I was tearing under the shades. I'm really tired waiting for your message, waiting for your calls, waiting for nothing in the end.
I wonder if I can finally get out of this rump, look ahead of me, be happy without any shadows behind. I don't know if it's my problem or just that I'm unlucky. 我不要王子苦苦守候的故事 梦幻不实我不希望你是王子. I know there's no way I can trust you, but that doesn't matter, because you never wanted me to trust you. How sadder can I be?
Just borrowed a couple of books, bought more manga, collected a series of novels, and stalked out a couple of halfway decent drama series. Maybe I should immerse myself in some fiction and remove myself from reality. Maybe I can then forget thinking about you.