I wanted to title this piece as "Closure" but I don't know what am I to write since I have no wish for a closure.
I was talking to a person the other day. He doesn't know anything about me, just by watching my body language, he seemed to be able to read my mind. He knew I was in a problem, and he advised me to find myself a closure. I know, really, I know, a closure is really something that will be very important for me to move on, but somehow, I feel as though I don't wish to move on.
It seems that I need to go a full circle before I can get the closure I need. Or do I need a closure? I'm still thinking... Where we started will be where we end, if we end. Since the said person wants an end and me don't want to end, where can I draw the circle?
This night, I came home from school at an ungodly hour. Somewhere around, three girls boarded the bus and started talking very loudly, and woke me up. I was a bit pissed off, until I heard snippets of their conversation. The words that struck me:
"VJ soccer team"
"a very nice guy"
I didn't get a closure. I just set myself down and blocked everything out. I don't know if it was effective anot, since an overheard conversation still made me think so much, but at least I'm not screwed up like then.
According to Wikipedia's entry on roses, yellow rose symbolises dying love, or platonic love. Maybe that's the kind of closure I'd need.
Should I let the flower die? Or should I turn it platonic?