心碎了无痕

《心碎了无痕》

闭上你的眼我的爱人
吻住你吻住疑问
你的心也变像落叶飞远
我宁愿瞎了眼看不见
求求你千千万万不走
空的心假的意
欺骗我都无妨
我会小小心心的等待
从施舍从怜悯变成真爱
相爱难恨亦难
我的心碎了无痕
吻著你心就不会疼
永不怨永不变
永不永远也不问
伤更深情更真

I always thought the title of this song was 《心碎了如痕》 because I thought that was sadder, but sometimes, things aren't so sad. Maybe I'm the one who wants myself to be sad, maybe things aren't that sad in life actually.

I've made a little decision, one decision that I made some time ago and I held out for about 6 months. This time I'll count how long I can hold out again. Life will be good. I'm too tired already. I'm contented like this. Maybe this is also what I want.

I took out an old journal and started writing stuff in it again. The last dated entry in my that journal was in March 2005. Two years have passed, two very long years. A lot have changed over this past two years, I won't say I'm glad all these have happened, but I'd say I've no regrets. I couldn't bear to read what I've wrote before, but I did take a short glance at it. Well, what should I say, the people I've wrote about then are no longer in my life. I wonder if the people I wrote about that day will still be in my life two years on.

Blast from the past.