The Past Came Back to Haunt

The title explains it clearly. I had a tough decision to make, to answer affirmatively, negatively, or to ignore. The wisest choice, of course, is to ignore, and hopefully everything will be all right again. But my fingers itchy, I replied, negatively, of course, but still, a reply is a reply.

So now, I'm like totally mindfucked and unsettled and in a mess.

一个人
杨乃文

雨下个不停
冷风儿吹
我心是雨水
慌乱没有起点
慌乱没有终点
飞舞在烟漠之间

溅湿了衣裳
迷惑了眼
到此为止吧
不想和你争辩
爱上你是从前
层层回忆将他洒在雨里面

驶向那白色地平线
浓雾漫在眼前
悲伤它总是一瞬间
浸湿了我
折磨着我
为何你始终不曾知道

只要你一个人了解我就够了
我已经付出全部爱和自由
只要你一个人了解我就够了
孤独它占据我心中已经太久
只要你一个人了解我就够了
泪已经流干
一切都太晚太晚

驶向那蓝色地平线
浓雾漫在眼前
悲伤它总是一瞬间
浸湿了我
折磨着我
为何你始终不曾知道

只要你一个人了解我就够了
我已经付出全部爱和自由
只要你一个人了解我就够了
孤独它占据我心中已经太久
只要你一个人了解我就够了
泪已经流干
一切都太晚太晚

一个人只要一个人

雨下个不停
冷风儿吹
我心是雨水
飞舞在烟漠之间
溅湿了衣裳
迷惑了眼
到此为止吧
不想和你争辩
爱上你是从前
层层回忆将它洒在雨里面

The other songs playing at the moment are Jolin Tsai's 《孤单的人总说无所谓》 and Emil Chau's 《寡妇村传奇》. I've put up these songs before so not putting them up again. I've changed my MSN quote to a verse from the latter song, but I altered a word and changed the entire meaning of the song. Don't know if anyone can spot it anot.

Anyway, speaking of that song, I realised that it wasn't Cindy nor Peiyi who recommended it to me, Cindy said that she never even heard of it before. She suggested it was someone else, but I thought it wasn't him because all along I thought it was a female who recommended it to me. In the end, I asked him and he replied affirmatively, so I guess it's more on that I subconsciously just didn't want it to be him.

Speaking of him, I was at AS1 walkway when a mutal friend who didn't know about our falling out, asked me something about something. She assumed that because of him, erm... She thought I'd be going because of his involvement, but I said I wasn't and she appeared to be rather shocked. I guess no one would have foresaw that our falling out would come so drastically. I guess that makes it two pasts coming back to haunt.

Then that day as I came home, the mp3 shuffled played all the sad songs. I think I need to load more happy songs into my mp3 player already.